Matthew Sanford's Waking: A Memoir of Trauma & Transcendence

Would you know from looking at this picture of Matthew Sanford practicing yoga that he is disabled?

Matthew is paralized from T4 downward due to a tragic car accident that occurred when he was just 13 years old. Yet not only does he go on to practice yoga but actually is a yoga teacher. 

In his book Waking: A Memoir of Trauma and Transcendence, Matthew Sanford describes the tragic event that changed the course of his life forever. He speaks of the numerous and painful surgeries that he endured and how his mind-body connection not only helped him through but opened him up to his new physical body.

"The splendor and subtlety of living is most apparent in the conscious prescence of the silence"

He describes his journey through yoga as "backwards". Most westerners move through the asanas or poses to get to silence, Matthew's silence allowed his mind to guide him into the poses which his body could not feel.

" alignment and precision increase mind-body integration regardless of paralysis. The mind is not strictly confined to a neurophysiological connection with the body. If I listen inwardly to my whole experience (both my mind's and my body's), my mind can feel into my legs".

Even though Matthew may not be able to physically do every pose it does not hinder him from teaching to students of all levels.

"I can "feel" the pose, feel how the physical instructions are intended to amplify, guide, and direct the flow of energy. When I teach, I give instructions and then I observe not just whether the physical actions are occuring, but also whether the intended energetic release is happening through the student's mind-body relationship. If the energy of the pose is not flowing correctly, I can often adjust the student and enhance his or her experience."

"...follow the energetic flow of a pose which allows me to see and feel the corresponding physical movements. This helps me to feel the heart of yoga despite my limited access to its physical movements. I can feel the pose's inner workings, its focus."

These two quotes above to me are the mark of an amazing teacher. I find that I utilize the mind-body connection of assuming my student's action in my own body to visualize and sense what is going on in their body and then make changes accordingly. It really matters very little when teaching what or how a pose or exercise looks or occurs in my own body.

I truly found his book and story inspirational. It is a story not only about movement, but about your outlook on life, the stories we tell ourselves to get through trauma, the amazing power of our minds and thoughts, and moving through life without limits.

To quote Matthew W. Sanford:

"Is yoga going to make all of my hardship go away? Of course not- my life is going to be hard. But without these difficulties, I would not be who I am."

What Yoga and Pilates is and is not.

Many of you have asked me to try to articulate how I describe the differences between Yoga and Pilates. While I could write a book on the subject, I will try to present the major differences (as I see them) as concisely as possible.

First let me say that I practice and enjoy both Pilates and Yoga. I find them as movement forms to have many similarities that lend well to one another. The following thoughts are my thoughts and are not meant to demean or belittle either Yoga or Pilates, but to try to put into words a clearer idea of what these both are and are not.

Yoga is a philosophy and Pilates is an exercise regimen

First, we must look at the intentions of both practices. Yoga is a philosophy that has existed for many thousands of years. There is a religious text called Bhagavad Gita that many of the asanas (postures) are representative of. The intention of the asanas is to create openess in the body to be able to sit in stillness for meditation and the attainment of kundalini or enlightenment. Only with the introduction of Yoga to the western world was it ever thought of as a fitness or exercise regime. Pilates has no spiritual or philosophical text or connection. It is an exercise regimen intended to create Uniform Body Development. The goal of Pilates is movement in the most precise, efficient, and effortless way.

Yoga works from the outside-in and Pilates from the inside-out

In yoga the series of movements start broad with sun salutions. They continue to be expansive and standing until about half way through practice, depending on style of yoga (i.e. Hatha, Iyengar, Ashtanga, Anusara, etc.) Then they move towards seated, prone, and supine work and finish supine with savasana (or rest pose). The external, expansion movement opens the body up for stillness and internal reflection. Pilates begins supine with small muscle engagement, connecting to mind body awareness and control. It moves from the center outward, starting with small movements and then gradually expanding to full body movements. The more expansive movements come at the end of the series leading to control of full range of motion, stability, and strength of movement.

Similar shapes

Both Yoga and Pilates shapes of movement are based off of things seen in Nature. Many of the movements mock animals like Cat, Swan, Snake, or Cobra. Many represent plants like Tree or Lotus. Many of the shapes are represented in both Yoga and Pilates. For example in Yoga Boat Pose is very similar to Pilates' Teaser; Pilates' Swan and Yoga's Cobra are similar, and many shapes make an appearance in both styles of movement.

Focus on Breath

Breath is a focus of both forms. The movements and the breath are coordinated. In most Yoga the breath is a heated cycle of breath (inhale through the nose, exhale through the nose), while in Pilates the breath is a cleansing style (inhale through the nose, exhale through the mouth). See previous blog Breathe.

Like I said I could write a book. But let's start with these. Let me know your thoughts on the differences and similarities between the two in the comment section below. Or if you have a specific question about either forms feel free to ask and I will do my best to answer as clearly as possible. 

Hope this helps and sheds some light on the subject. 

Healthy Holiday Gift Ideas

The holiday season is abounding. This year why not give the gift of health. Here are a few healthy gift giving ideas in a variety of price ranges.

A month's worth of classes at their favorite yoga, pilates, or dance studio. In Chicago, studios like Yogaview and Bar Method offer Gift Certificates in any amount. Nature Yoga offers packages like an Intro Pack for only $79 or a monthly unlimited for $150. Ask your favorite yoga or pilates instructor if they are offering gift certificates this holiday, piLALAtes is. What better way to help your loved one reach their New Year's Resolution than with the gift of Physical and in some cases Spiritual health.

A gift certificate for a relaxing massage with your favorite therapist. Either in home or at their location. This is a great way to treat your loved one to some holiday de-stressing and also to compliment your therapist with a referral that may potentially become a new client. Note: I think it is proper when giving a gift of this nature to include tip, so the recipient is not reliable for this.

This is one of my favorites, a homemade spa package. Put together some of your favorite products. I like to bag up some of my favorite bath salts or scrub, a relaxing scented candle, a face mask, homemade body oil with essential oil added to it (can be used for bath, moisturizing, or massage), a few tea bags, and some chocolate. A decadent gift of relaxation and time. Maybe try adding an Itunes playlist of some relaxing tunes. This gift can be as simple or extravagant as you choose.

Or try a spiritual or healthy living book. There are so many great ones to choose from. I suggest The China Study, The Omnivore's Dilemma, The Tipping Point, The Book of Awakening: Having the Life You Want by Being Present to the Life You Have, The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, or Light on Yoga to name a few. Give a book in Kindle or Nook to be even more environmentally friendly and save the paper of an actual book.

Do you have a favorite gift of health that you have given or received?

Give a little love

On November 19th I attended a Dharma and Meditation workshop hosted by Wade Gotwals at Nature Yoga Sanctuary.  The evening was led by Buddhist monk Kelsang Dorje. "His humorous approach to challenging life subjects will truly give you the tools to change your perception and change your life".

The evening started with some light pranayama (breathing) and yoga to prepare our bodies to sit, led by Wade and then Kelsang Dorje spoke on life. Our life is based on our perceptions, we all are intertwined, and how to live in love. Our worlds are based on our own experiences and perceptions. If you see the world through rose colored glasses it will be a rose colored world. Knowing this it is easy to change the way you choose to see and experience the world. Kelsang Dorje compares it to a hot coal. If someone were to throw a hot coal to you and you catch it, you would choose to drop it immediately because it burns. And the next time someone threw a hot coal at you, you wouldn't even reach to grab it. However, so many times in life we choose to carry or hold onto this hot coal as we move through life. He relates this to carrying negative thoughts, images, experience and perceptions. We need to learn the lesson and make the choice to drop the coal and not pick it up again.

He spoke on "love". That to love someone basically means to wish them happiness and an end to suffering. That there is no limit to the amount of love we have to give or receive. Therefore why not give love to everyone. Wouldn't the world be a much nicer place to move about if while passing people in the world they were sending love to you and you to them. Yes, there are different types of love and different karmic connections which allow us to relate deeper to one another but the basic feeling of love is the same. When you look at it from this point to love someone doesn't mean you have to agree with them, approve of their actions, or want them to become your best friend or lover. It just means that you wish them happiness. Seems easy enough, right? Easy to do when you are in the community that is supporting that common good, much harder to do in the busy city when someone has just cut you off. There is the challenge. When that person cuts you off, can you take a deep breath and wish them happiness and an end to their suffering. Choosing to see that maybe they really do need to get somewhere before you. Or at least not let it be the hot coal that you carry around for the rest of your day passing along to others. Instead of tossing or carrying the coal, the challenge is to carry or pass the love.

I thoroughly enjoyed meeting Kelsang Dorje and hearing his teachings. I am trying to meditate more throughout my week and move through the world with love in my heart. 

If you would like to experience Kelsang Dorje and his teachings. Here are a few of his upcoming workshops and website. For more info and upcoming events visit www.meditateinchicago.org

Believing Karma: The Power to Change our life

Oak Park

Vajrayana Kadampa Buddhist Center

13 Harison St, Oak Park 60304

Mondays, 7-8:30pm

November 1 - December 13

Lakeview

Center on Halsted

3656 N. Halsted St Room #202

Chicago, IL 60313

Tuesdays, 7-8:30pm

November 2 - December 14

Feel free to drop into any class. Everyone is welcome. $10/class

The Blessing Empowerment of Enlightened Mother Arya Tara

Saturday, December 4, 2010

10am-5pm

Cost: $65 (includes light vegetarian lunch)

Vajrayana Kadampa Buddhist Center

13 Harrision Street

Oak Park, IL 60304

To register for this special event email info@meditateinchicago.org or call 708.763.0132

The Yoga Marathon

The Chicago Marathon took place this year on Sunday, 10.10.10. I saw the winning men place on television before heading off to my normal Sunday Yoga class at Nature Yoga Sanctuary. As we entered class and began to set up our mats the Marathon was on everyone's mind. With the street closures that happen due to the marathon it can make getting around Chicago on that morning a little like a game of Frogger for some. We joked about finishing the marathon in time to get to class.

My teacher Wade usually begins with thoughts before class. Today he spoke about the supportive community of people cheering these marathon runners on their journey. Wouldn't it be nice in Yoga class to have that same positive support. "Come on you can hold that pose one more breath" or applauding the completion of a difficult posture or vinyasa series. 

It got me to thinking about how I approach my Yoga practice. My Sunday class is an hour and forty-five minutes long.  So much like a marathon it is about pacing yourself.  If you start out too strongly at the beginning of class you won't have the strength for the more vigorous series and difficult postures. You have to know yourself and the course so you don't hit the wall before mile 20. Focusing and riding the breath are true for both the Marathon and yoga. When you mentally hit those moments of doubt, fear, pain or fatigue tuning into your breath can get you over the edge and moving forward. It's about visualizing yourself crossing that finish line or getting into that difficult pose that you have been struggling with.

While I didn't complete 26.2 miles of Chicago pavement on Sunday 10.10.10. I did complete 105 minutes of vigorous yoga. I breathed, challenged, and cheered myself through the longer vinyasas and more difficult postures. And by the time I reached the finish line of Savasana I felt completely blissed out and proud of my accomplishment. The Marathon of Yoga complete.

My job is a pain in the __________ !

Whether your job entails you sitting at a computer all day, playing chauffeur to your kids activities/running a household, or hauling products on sales pitch meetings; your job could be and probably is causing your body a lot of pain.  Many of the activities involved in our jobs are done under stress and create undesirable movement patterns. Since movement patterns develop over time and repetition the 7-12 hours (or more) on your job is doing you more harm than you may think.  Your good intentions of working out at the gym, pilates, yoga, or your personal trainer 1-2 hours a day, 5-6 days a week is a good start. However, in the grand scheme of things these good movement patterns are not enough to negate the undesirable patterns being reinforced in a greater time frame.

So if you are not fortunate enough to work in a field like mine, what are you to do?

First of all be aware. Notice how you are sitting at your desk, in your car, carrying your bags. Notice what happens to your body when you start to think about how you are sitting, where your shoulders and head are in space, the side of your body that is carrying your heavy bag.  Just the awareness will allow you to notice your posture, habits and notice where you are carrying your tension.  Become aware throughout your day. Not only when you are at work, but preparing dinner, bathing your children, washing the dishes, even reading or watching television.  I have caught myself several times sitting on the couch reading with my head and neck completely tensed up and forward. Awareness is the first step in breaking any pattern.

Second, try to send the positive movement patterns from yoga, pilates, your personal trainer into your workday.  Sit up tall lifting out of your hips. Create space between your vertebrae. Allow your shoulders to hang and rest gently on the spine.  Root down through your feet and lengthen out through the crown of your head.  Creating this internal conversation with your body throughout the day can create a lot of positive changes.  This is also a good time to reevaluate your work environment. Is your chair at the proper height for your computer? Is the position of the back of the chair causing you to slouch or enabling you sit up tall? I am a huge proponent of sitting on a large resistance ball when at my computer, forcing me to sit up tall.  There are many stores that sell ball and ball-like products for exactly this purpose.  Relax the back has stores all over the country, as well as being able to order online.  Make sure the angle of your computer and keyboard is ergonomic and not causing you to strain to see the screen or drop the wrists to type.  These small patterns may seem trivial, but you are doing this pattern for the majority of your day and these small movement patterns are becoming more and more ingrained into your body with every key stroke and email.

Lastly, take a desk break.  I like the ratio of 15 minutes of break for every 45 minutes of work.  Take the time to stand up from your seat or get out of your car. Take a short little walk down to the water fountain or a little stair work in your office. Stretch. Bend. Move. Try to counteract the movement patterns that you are in the most at your job.  Close the door and breath or meditate even for 5 minutes. This will allow you to continue to be aware, send positive messages to your body, and reverse the undesirable patterns.  It will break up the pattern and restart you each hour.

Link to the first segment of my Podcast Series: Desk Break. This is a 5-10 minute video of exercises specifically chosen to break the negative movements and can be done in your office, using only your desk, and chair. Note: You may want to close your door or better yet, invite your co-workers to join in with you.


Be sure to subscibe to piLALAtes You Tube channel for more Desk Break segments to come.

Breathe...

In both Yoga and Pilates we focus on the connection of breath and movement.  Yet the breathing process is different in each method and has a different purpose.

In Yoga, the most common breath taught through the asanas is Ujjayi. An inhalation through the nose and exhalation through the nose, which makes a soft sound at the back of the throat on the exhalation (much like Darth Vader from Star Wars).  The breath is meant to be loud enough to be heard without being too forceful. It is meant to create a rhythm and flow for movement and to create an internal heat.  Many forms like Ashtanga have a set number of breaths for each posture or asana.  The internal breath heats the body from the inside-out, creating a sweat, and detoxifying the body from the purging of this sweat.  There are also many ways of studying the breath through Yoga called Pranayama. Pranayama teaches how to control the breath in different ways for specific purposes, i.e. digestion, stress relief, enlightenment.

In Pilates, the breath is built into the movement as well as cued.  Different than Yoga, Pilates breath is an inhalation through the nose and an exhalation through an open, relaxed mouth. Joseph Pilates called this breath "an internal shower". Imagine trying to see your breath on a cold day or fogging up a mirror.  This breath "supplies the bloodstream with vitally necessary life-giving oxygen in the most efficient manner. Also the complete exhalation and inhalation of air stimulates all muscles into greater activity", according to Joseph Pilates writings Return to Life through Contrology. The breath is used to cleanse and purify the body of toxins, increase circulaiton, and wring the body out.  The movement and breath coordinate with one another the inhalation is usually done on a lengthening or stretching movement and the exhalation on a contracting or shortening movement. It is meant to aid in the movement and the movement aid the breath.

In both practices it important to remember to breathe and not hold or ever tense up on your breath.  If you practice both Yoga and Pilates you may find switching from one style of breath to another confusing. Try to relax and most importantly breathe, regardless of which breath you end up with.  As Joe is often impersonated, in his thick German accent "you must in d air to out d air".

The Mirror Conspiracy

Yoga and Pilates are both mind/body systems. They focus on how you feel in the posture or pose, alignment and being present in your body.  So how do you feel and react to a class with mirrors? And does it differ for you from one system to the other?

For me it differs from one to the another. In Pilates, I like having a mirror to check in on structural alignment and posture to be sure that what I am feeling and seeing are the same.  I tend to use it more from a side view rather than a frontal view.  And use it as a tool, but not throughout the entire session.  In Yoga, I am completely thrown by a mirror. It messes with my sense of balance in standing postures and I find I am not able to stay inside with my breath and postures but taken into a place of judgement by the visual. The absolute reverse effect of what I am looking for in my Yoga practice.

I am always amused by people who throughout a class or workout are so drawn in by their reflection in the mirror.  Yoga and Pilates are about connecting internally. The external results that happen are just a cherry on top of the sundae.  So next time you are in a class with mirrors take notice of how much you notice your reflection.  Are you using it for vanity or growth? Are you able to only see externally or internally as well? Is visual your strongest sense of self?  Challenge yourself to look inward, rather than outward and your reflection of yourself might just surprise you.

The Yoga/Pilates Relationship

This weekend I had an interesting experience. I had to teach a very small segment of Pilates to a room of Yoga Teachers. Now I am an avid yogi myself so am very familiar with yoga poses and principles. I would venture to say that while many of these Yoga Teachers had heard of Pilates, they had never tried it.

I learned a lot from them while teaching this very abbreviated class. While I do believe that Yoga teaches you how to listen to your body, Pilates teaches you how to talk to your body. These instructors struggled to control and focus in on releasing and activating certain muscles as well as move bones in space. Which now makes sense why my yoga instructors have always complimented me on how well I make self adjustments and move subtly within a posture. And don’t get me started on Core...I lead them through the matwork Abdominal Series of Five and they were dying. They were unable to really stabilize the pelvis and shoulder blades and focus on deepening the core. I find sun salutations in Yoga to be an amazing core exercise, as well as vinyasas. So how is it that these ideas are not getting passed along?

I highly recommend Yoga to my students and believe that the two philosophies lend well to one another. Yoga allows one to quiet the mind, dive deeper, flow freer, open up. Pilates awakens the mind, dives deeper to allow you to focus and use the body in the most precise and controlled ways. These two philosophies both stand alone well on their own. The balance of the two is integral, I believe, to a healthy relationship with the human body. Isn’t every relationship about give and take, listening and speaking from the heart, knowing when to hold on and when to let go, strength and flexibility?

I think it’s time to work on the yin and yang of the Yoga and Pilates relationship. The benefits are immeasurable.